A Reflection of 10 years….

***Disclaimer: This is NOT a celebration of any death at any time, but this is my reflection on the past 10 years as a Muslim-American and what all this recent news translates to me. I don’t believe that I, or any other person, can judge any human being. I will leave that up to God. This is just my reflection of 10 years about a character who seemed to change the world around me.***

Bismillah al-Rahman al-Raheem  (In the name of God, most Gracious most Merciful)

I am writing this in reflection of the most recent news of Osama bin Laden’s death. When I first heard there was a national security issue to be addressed at 10:30 pm on a Sunday night, I assumed it was something about Libya. Then leaked sources stated it wasn’t, and I started to worry that my worst nightmare has come to realization: A tyrannosaurus rex was cloned and had gotten lose in North Carolina. All the scenes from Jurassic Park started to replay in my head and I started to think of places to take cover and if I had enough gas in my car to get me far. But it wasn’t… and the rumors started to come out that maybe bin Laden was dead….officially. I actually had my doubts, we haven’t heard much from him recently and I figured he had been dead for awhile.

I was shocked. When it was actually announced, then I was ecstatic, then I was worried, then I reflected. This is what caught me.

Ten years ago, I was taking a math test in my 8th grade pre-Algebra class. And a teacher rushed in and told us to stop and watch the news. I remember seeing the World Trade Center in smoke, the first plane had just hit and no one knew what was going on–by the time we got to PE–it was confirmed this was an attack. It was an attack claimed by al-Qaeda, lead by a man named Osama bin Laden. I had no clue who they were and they sounded Arab, so I started to get nervous. What made me even more nervous was that my teachers were crying and calling their families in New York and I was getting stares…lots of them.

I guess it’s no surprise when you are one of the 2-3 girls wearing a scarf on your head at the time of a national crisis that involves people that look just like you. I was lucky though, I had my cousin with me in school and I felt safe with her. The following weeks were OK and I had great teachers, counselors, neighbors and friends who were nothing but supportive and loving. I know there were others that were not so lucky…

But given recent events, I thought about the past 10 years, and I realized something.

I have become a stronger, more confident Muslim woman.

I am proud of what I wear on my head. It has made me who I am today. And I know that every time I put on my hijab (headscarf) and walk out the door, I am fighting that stereotype that Mr. bin Laden set up. I know that I am counteracting every single stupid stereotype people have a Muslim woman. I work, I go to school, I have a life, feelings, independent thought (sometimes too much for my parents and probably too much for my own good–but it works out). No person can deprive me of my right to live a life that I have worked hard for and I will not allow anyone on either extreme to intimidate me. I have been taught well by my teachers to stand up and stand tall because what I wear on my head, and what I believe is not something that shameful. It’s what makes me, me.

So if anything, thank you bin Laden, for trying so hard, because you made me want to try even harder to be a better person and a better representative of Islam. Because you were not.


Ina Garten’s Chicken Pot Pie…My way :)

So I love chicken pot pie. It’s such a southern food and it makes me happy. Unfortunately it’s usually chock full of sodium, fat, and well more fat. But I took some stuff out of it and made it my way: I tried to cut out the saturated fats, carbs and the TONS of butter. I really liked it, my MOM really liked it.. So here you go y’all. Sorry this is sans pictures because, I was hungry and I forgot to take pictures as went along.

Start to Finish: 20 minutes


1 cup of chopped carrots

1/2 of green beans

1 cup of corn

1/2 cup of finely chopped potatoes

(Honestly add any kind of veggie you want here, I didn’t have the potatoes)

Approximately .25 lbs of chicken breast

3/4 cup of flour

3 tbsp of “Smart Butter” –i.e. vegetable spread that goes soft, almost liquid if at room temp.

1 chicken/veggie bullion

2 cups water

1/2 cup of milk (I used 2%)


**Bake chicken breast before using in the oven at 350 F*

1. Put water and bullion in a pot  to make a stock. Put on med-high.

2. Add in 1/2 cup of milk.

3. Once the mixture starts to heat up, add butter in.

4. Allow to start boiling and add in flour. This step is critical. As you add the flour in you MUST whisk it, otherwise it will clump and look gross. Continue to whisk really fast until the mixture is smooth.

5. Add in veggies and allow to boil, but lower temperature to about medium. I personally like my veggies a little on the crispy side so I don’t let them boil as much.

6. Cut up chicken breast that you baked and add into mixture.

7. Salt and pepper to taste!


“Omnipotence or Ominous Impotence: Of Human and Humanity” By Assad Meymandi, MD, Ph.D

Salaam all–

I know I have not blogged for quite some time but here it is! I was sent this email through a list serve..I really liked what he was getting at! Comments welcome as long as they are civilized =).

Omnipotence or Ominous Impotence: Of Human and Humanity” By Assad Meymandi, MD, PhD, DLFAPA*

[On the occasion of the 2010 Citizen of the World Award Dinner]

I take the prerogative of the podium to ask for a minute of austere silence for the victims of domestic violence, for the victims of 9/11, for the victims of the devastating 2003 earthquake in Bam, Iran, for the victims of Katrina, for the victims of Haiti, still millions stranded and infested with cholera, for the victims of the floods in Myanmar (formerly Burma), for the victims of the recent floods in Pakistan, for the victims of tsunami in Indonesia, for the victims of hundreds of thousands of Rwandan genocide, for the victims of the ethnic cleansing and religious intolerance throughout the world, for the victims of the two ongoing wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, and for the everyday victims of drug infested streets of Mexico and America….

Looking over the annals of human history, it is undeniable that we have made progress in industry, mechanization, discoveries, and have made stunning advancement in health, technology and finance. After all, we put men on the moon with their safe return to earth more than 41 years ago. But one wonders if we have made any progress in civility and humanity. One wonders if we have succeeded in overcoming greed, if we have learned to stop manipulating, exploiting and using our fellow humans for selfish gain. The imperative of love and charity seems to be missing from the basic construct of human interaction.

1770 BC, a fellow by the name of Hammurabi, in Khuzestan, a part of Susa, Persian Empire, wrote a set of 282 rules or laws, each of which dealing with the rights of individual and the ultimate respect for one another. Over 50 of the 282 codes deal with equality of humans and specifically with the dignity and rights of women.

Cyrus the Great, the Persian Emperor, to whom the Bible has more than 100 references, over 2500 years ago, ruled his kingdom with dignity and beneficence. One of the Biblical references, for example, Isaiah 45, calls Cyrus the Great, King of Persia, the Messiah. Cyrus emancipated the Jews and established equal rights for men and women. In managing his vast empire, to be in touch with his emissaries, rulers in distant parts of the kingdom, he developed a formal service charged with sending and receiving communiqués to and from his lieutenants, thus the birth of the postal service which he called “Peyk”. The cabinet of Cyrus the Great consisted of twelve Viziers (ministers or secretaries) several of whom were women. The first person in charge of the Royal mail service was a woman. Her name was Mithra (which in Zoroastrian parlance means, dignity). The father of the United States Postal Service (USPS), the polymath Benjamin Franklin, has referred to Mithra in official language, as well as in amorous terms. After all, the gentleman was a lady’s man! No wonder he had special regards for Mithra…In 2010, in the same country, Persia, they are stoning women for as insignificant offense of showing their hair, or ankles or holding hands with a male in public. Is this progress in civility, humanity and human dignity?

Fast forward the clock of history. Count Giovanni Pico della Mirandola (24 February 1463 – 17 November 1494), the Italian Renaissancephilosopher, at the age of 23, in 1486, in his equivalent to today’s PhD dissertation proposed to defend 900 theses on religion, philosophy, natural history and astronomy, against all comers. The result was the famous Oration on the Dignity of Man. It has been called the “Manifesto of the Renaissance”, and a key text of Renaissance humanism. In this essay, Pico invokes the writings and thoughts of all ancient wise men, going back to Moses, Zoroaster, Zerubbabel, Pythagoras, Aristotle, Platonic philosophers and well neo-platonic philosophers such as Plotinus to conclude: “At last, the Supreme Maker spoke: we have made you a creature neither of heaven nor of earth, neither mortal nor immortal, in order that you may, as the free and proud shaper of your own being, fashion yourself in the form you may prefer. It will be in your power to descend to the lower, brutish forms of life; you will be able, through your own decision, to rise again to the superior orders whose life is divine.”

So, where are we? Why we are not rising to the superior orders in advancing the cause of humanity, human dignity and enhance connectedness in human family?

Saadi Shirazi, the eloquent Persian poet (born 1210, died 1290) has a poem, the rough translation is (Bani Adam, the progenies of Adam. That is to say, we humans) are organs of one body…An organ separated from body cannot function…So, we humans without one another cannot function…” He goes on to say, “If one organ of the body is ill and aches, the rest of the body experiences pain and becomes restless…” I do not know of any more eloquent and descriptive simile that illustrates human being’s connectedness and brotherhood. Yet we have constant war, constant destruction and constant killing. In America, we have a population of 300 million or about 4.5 to 5% of the world’s roughly six billion, yet we consumed over 25% of the world energy. We have over 2.5 million people in prison more than any other developed nation. Reliable sources report up to 80% of our prison and jail population have a diagnosable psychiatric illness and should be treated rather than imprisoned. Certainly, what International Affairs Council is doing and has done since its inception in 1975 is helpful to bring these matters to the forefront of consciousness, and bring people together. Congratulations to the Board of Directors and to Todd Culpepper.

The title I have chosen for my talk today “Omnipotence or Ominous Impotence” draws on these historic facts. The life of Neolithic man on this earth is short, about ten thousand years. Looking back 8000 years ago with the emergence of Sumerians and invention of writing in Lydia, the world has witnessed rise and fall of many dynasties, empires and powerful nations. There was Mesopotamian kingdom, Accadians, Egyptians, and the mighty Roman Empire, Pax Romana, which was destroyed by Rome’s pre-occupation with the affairs of the Middle East. Then there was the Persian Empire now in shambles, and in modern day, the empires emerging in the developed world, Andalusia and British Empire…They have all experienced omnipotence, yet the ignominious ending have been nothing but impotence, destruction and reduction to a vague memory forgotten in the dustbin of human history. In England, there was Lady Matilda Maud (1102-1167) who first wrote a manifesto of human and women rights. Her activities led to the emergence and development of King John’s Magna Carta in 1215. In America, Susan B Anthony (1820-1906) fashioned her activities after Lady Maud. In 1920, the 19th amendment to the Constitution, signed by President Woodrow Wilson, gave women the right to vote.

With the historical decline and retrogression of human values and the humanities, I am offering some thoughts and suggestions. The history of humanity has offered us some brilliant role models who forcefully invite us to espouse the kind of altruism which promises the salvation of mankind.

I want to invoke the names of three brilliant stars in the intellectual firmament whose teachings have influenced human behaviour the most. The first one is Saint Augustine of Hippo, born 345, died 430 AD. He was born a pagan, converted to Christianity in 386, was baptized on Easter Sunday April 4, 387. He wrote 49 volumes in theology, philosophy and other topics related to humanities, a total of 20 millions words. Saint Augustine’s autobiography, 13 books of Confessions bravely talks about his stealing from his parents, fathering a son out of wedlock, stealing pears form neighbour’s yard, lying to his mother and finally sneaking off to Carthage . thence to Rome where he became a Manichean and finally met his intellectual superior in the person of St. Ambrose in Milan. St. Ambrose one of four Latin Doctors (beside Augustine, Saint Jerome, and Pope Gregory) was instrumental in setting Augustine’s course to conversion and ultimately to priesthood and Sainthood.

Saint Augustine’s writing is replete with man’s dalliance with false omnipotence. He wrote extensively about narcissism, self indulgence and greed. As a matter of fact, he called a newborn baby not a bundle of joy and innocence, but a bundle of sin, because the baby is wrapped up in self and survival and removed from consideration of others. This is what in psychoanalytic jargon is called “primary infantile autism” or “primary infantile narcissism”. As the child grows and the central nervous system matures, reality testing skills and learning to have consideration for and, deference to, others are developed. The opportunity to grow and become more altruistic, more giving, and less selfish and self centered is the gift of life. Saint Augustine was a proponent of the concept of grace and salvation. He espoused Pauline theology of grace which briefly is described as “an unearned and undeserved free gift”. He wrote more than a million words on the topic of grace.

The second brightest star of the intellectual firmament we are exploring is Moses Maimonides of Cordoba, born 1135, died 1204, a Jewish physician, colleague, theologian, philosopher, clinician and practitioner. He too wrote about 20 million words in his life time. He, too, was concerned about the issue of grace and salvation. Moses, in spite of being the Caliph’s personal physician in Cordoba, was forced by anti-Semitic influence to flee to Egypt. There is a small statue of Moses (Rambam) in Cordoba. Emily and I take a single long stem rose and place it at his statue every time we are in Cordoba. We do the same when we visit the tomb of Claudio Monteverdi, father of Western Opera (Orpheo et Euridice 1607) in Iglesia de Santa María Gloriosa dei Frari, Venice, Veneto Region, Italy

The third brightest star of the intellectual constellation is Ibn Khaldoun, born 1336, died 1420, an Arab/Muslim theologian, economist, philosopher, music lover and advocate and writer. He, too wrote about 20 millions words in his lifetime. Ibn Khaldoun was the father of trickledown economics which was adopted by the late President Reagan in 1981. He appointed Columbia Professor Robert Mundel, as Chair of the White House Economic Council. Emily and I had lunch with him at his villa near Florence in 1993. And our conversation was around Ibn Khaldoun whose books and writings surrounded Robert’s study. Dr. Mundel won the Nobel Prize for Economics in 1999, after fathering the birth of Euro as a unit of currency for the European Union. He is now busy developing a unit of currency for the Middle East. Incidentally, Ibn Khaldoun’s advocacy of music was ingenious. A word of history of the role of music in Islam is in order: Mohammadpbuh, the founder of Islam was born 580 AD. At age 40, 620 AD, he started Islam and two years later, the Islamic Holy Book, Quoran, was completed. In early Islam, music and paintings were prohibited by Islamic cannon and Fatwa. Ibn Khaldoun, a lover of music noted that it is permissible to sing the passages from Quoran as the Muezzins sing their invitation to prayer from minarets five times a day. He suggested to the ruling grand Ayatollah of the day to organize a competition and invite the best readers/singers of various Islamic nations to come to a place and compete, picking the best singers of the Quoran passages. It is called Talavat Quran Majeed. It started in 1365 and continues to this day. It is like the Olympics of signing in the Islamic world. He later introduced percussion (tablah) and strings to enhance the majesty of Quoranic passages. The Talavat competition has gone on uninterruptedly since 1365. The only other continuous musical event regardless of war, depression and uncertainties is Handle’s Messiah, since 1742. The performance was attended by George I. He was so moved by the Alleluia chorus that he stood up, handing down the custom to this day.

These three writers’ advice against hubris, omnipotence, appearance and glitz, repeatedly warn us not to mistake ominous impotence for power and omnipotence. The distilled message of almost 60 million words written by these three sages is-and I am offering it as a take home treat– “The road map to grace and salvation is to know what is good inside of you; that is intellect, love, compassion, altruism, empathy, access to the rich array of so many other feelings; and knowing what is good outside of you, namely, family, connectedness, friendship, music, nature, flowers, dance, and poetry; And to be thankful for them by giving something back and making a difference in the lives of others. The issue of awareness is very important. It takes discipline to be aware. The heightened form of awareness in Sufi is called “Zekr”, that is to be constantly aware of all good things inside and outside of one’s self. Mowlana Rumi said “Blessed are those who are in meditation, Zekr, forthey are in constant prayer…” What do we do with all this doom and gloom and pessimism? I think there is hope. There possibility , there is redemption

I believe that ultimately for those who believe in God that God wants us humans to succeed and progress. From time to time, one child is chosen to become a role model. For example, Buddha was sent to teach us patience, wisdom and awareness. Zoroaster was sent to give us the concept of good and evil, epistemological dualism. Moses was sent to exemplify discipline, devotion and yes, the gift of doubt. Jesus of Nazareth was sent to demonstrate the power of love. Mohammadpbuh, to offer us Islam, total submission to the will of God. Mozart to illustrate the power of music. This every day common man with multiple organ systems failure, including kidneys liver suffering from ravages of alcohol, while mourning the death of his mother and his little daughter, in the summer 1886 wrote Symphony in G minor, and other works topped by celebratory Jupiter Symphony in C major. No mere human can do this. Finally, the world was given America, our Founding Fathers, Thomas Jefferson, George Washington, James Madison, Benjamin Franklin and others, to give us a system of government, a Republic that cherishes the supremacy of rule of law, and not the whims of kings, Shahs and Ayatollahs. America is a decent and generous nation. In case of natural disaster, in Haiti, in Pakistan, in Nepal and Myanmar, America is the first to be there and to help. It is in America that people decide who will govern them within one day. We have had elections in Nigeria in March, the results are still being disputed with innocent people facing impending civil war. Iraq just last week after eight months and much violence came to recognize a government. On Tuesday November 3, we elected over five thousand people who will govern us within 24 hours and without a single shot fired. This is the miracle of America, United States is a land that allows its citizens to reach their maximum potential. I am very optimistic about the future of the world because the world has America, and America has the basic devotion and reverence to uphold the rights of every individual. This is the gift of our Republic.